I believe that the Universe is ALWAYS speaking to us. What we HAVE to do is pay attention. Events and situations are always speaking to us. Are we listening?
This happened to me recently. I had to have a routine colonoscopy as part of my wellness program. By nature, I’m not a procrastinator. In this case, I put it off till the last minute. The reason? I had to have someone drive me to, and from, the hospital. The procedure involves sedation. The hospital is FIRM on having someone be with you for the procedure.
Since I couldn’t get anyone to take me, I used the delivery service through my insurance plan. I was relieved that I had this option. I was also anxious as to how this would all play out. I tend to control things and wanted this to be seamless.
He walked me to my destination, albeit begrudgingly. His behavior alerted the hospital staff to contact the insurance company about how this would ALL play out.
In this moment, I witnessed a calamity of errors that pushed my anxiety button.
Things settled down and I was led to a pre-exam room. The blood pressure cup was attached and I lay there until it was time for the procedure. The nurses were concerned about my blood pressure. It’s usually high when I see the doctor. This time, it was off the charts. Unbeknownst to me, the doctor cancelled that procedure and contacted the E.R. staff. He believed that I was about to have a heart attack or stroke. The nurses came in to inform me about the procedure. I HAD to go to the ER to have the blood pressure addressed.
I was in the E.R. for a couple of hours to assess my blood pressure and heart. Everything checked out and I was discharged.
Needless to say, I didn’t sleep well that night. I was so frustrated with the turn of events. I replayed the situation over and over again.
It took me a couple of days before reality hit. I was trying to control the situation. By nature, I’m a control freak. This was no exception. ALL the events were showing me something – I needed to slow down and stop controlling situations. If I continued to control events, the anxiety would get worse. Now, when I feel I want to control things, I remember what happened in the E.R. IN addition, I practice “breathing into my heart” and remembering that I am on a journey. Things WILL work out positively if I relinquish control!
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Question for you: 1) What situations do you still want to control? Why? 2) What can you do to change this behavior?